So of course, we all have family members or friends that have Birthday's or going away parties, or a need for a celebration for any other sort of reason. How does it make you feel though? When you enter that restaurant or the area that everyone else is in do you immediately feel self-conscious about how you look, what you represent and even what you think you should or shouldn't order? I feel these ways constantly.
Tonight, we are celebrating my Brother's Birthday at Texas Roadhouse ( A steakhouse of sorts) and of course you have to order food, and they are not really known for their salads now are they? Of course not. I have to deal with friends and other family members who will order their food, ask me what I am ordering and I have to have that answer. Should I splurge and order something delicious? Should I order a small salad and make due so that I am hungry later? Or should I just order what I want to eat and have people look at me as if I just ordered the whole menu, and have to be asked many questions by the waitress who of course is a skinny girl who looks at me with those OMG does she really need to order that meal eyes. It's not like I want to order the whole menu, just some chicken and gravy from a steak house from crying out loud!
It's like when someone brings in donuts, and doesn't ask if you want one until everyone else takes one first because they are afraid you'll eat the majority and not leave some for the rest of the people around. It gets frustrating after a while because, even though I am considered obese I honestly don't eat all the donuts that get brought in, heck its a rare occasion when I even take one because I am afraid of what people will think of me as soon as I do take one.
Tonight I start my first Zumba session. Of course, I am going to do it alone in my basement because I don't have anyone to work out with, and I have so many of my own issues to go someplace even just to pay $5 to work out with a group of people. Eventually I will get there, don't you worry but as far as today I am going to do what I can and make it count. I even went ahead and looked at Purchasing an elliptical machine earlier today and found a pretty decent one for only $129 which almost beats the gym price---If I can watch TV while I am pushing myself some people think that it would help motivate me to keep working out and it wouldn't be a bored situation. First, I have to get the approval for where I would want to store it. :-)
Wanna challenge me on your Fitbit? I'd love to have more people push me to do better.
It's an ounce at a time: Today's Weight: 270.5
It doesn't matter if I didn't lose a pound, because Every Ounce Counts.
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