Alright, well I don't know about you but I am sooo ready for summer and good weather- At this point, I would even take spring and 50's :-).
During the summer months my Brother and Sister-in-Law really pushed me to be going out and doing what I could to better myself and I really wish I could get outside now and do that! We had a great system of walking almost every night outside and around the block basically but we added to it so it was approximately 3.5 miles to walk. If you think that is an easy task at first, let me tell you- When I started I could barely make it around a single city block! I was exhausted and had trouble breathing and definitely wanted to quit. You wanna know what happened? My brother let me quit that day. However, the very next day he pushed me to do an extra two block around before I quit that time. Again, he allowed it. Little by little I did a little bit more before I had to quit and stop due to breathing, or exhaustion. By the end of the summer I could easily walk the entire thing and had no issues breathing, wasn't exhausted and felt great about myself. I can remember that first day that I made it a whole city block and I was proud that I got out and did it, when I finally walked through the door I felt like my body was rubber and just fell into my bed and said I'll never do that again.
I guess the moral of that little adventure down memory lane is 1. I am so glad that I have someone who supports me the way my brother and family does. 2. I am very glad that I never gave up 3. Most of all, I am glad that I pushed forward and kept at it, even though I wasn't able to jump at it right away and do the entire thing, I slowly buy surely worked my way up to it. Hopefully the same thing is going to happen with my weight as I just keep hacking at it and each morning when I get on that scale I say to myself, It's okay if I moved up just a little bit because this is a struggle and that just means today I will have to work a little bit harder so I can see the numbers that I want to see.
Now, Back to the bad weather and working indoors- I feel contained in a little box during this weather and can't wait to feel free and outside again! The other night I did Zumba, at home in my own little area. I was ducking the entire time because I though I was going to knock things over or hit something when I was following along with the video- However, I found some amazing starter videos and I was able to follow both and I felt great afterwards. It makes me consider joining a gym that offers these types of classes and try to find people out there just like me who are struggling with their weight and doing everything in order to fix it themselves... I guess I'm still scared of the little girl who always teased me about my rolls and that there are still people out there who feel the same way.
The struggle is not just physical, its also mental. One day, hopefully soon I will have the courage.
Today's weight: 269.2
I feel good about today's number. Is it where I want to be? Heck No. However it is another step in the right direction and out of the horrible 70's.
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